Bright Raven, the official word on the Trinity doctrine is that it cannot be understood.
"If you deny the trinity you lose your soul, if your try to explain the trinity you shall lose your mind" - Saint Augustine.
Now I don't think Augustine has the right to speak for God and Christ or to slay anyone's soul over whether they confirm or deny his doctrine, but I do know that our scripture does say that "
What is not of faith is sin" and that if one cannot honestly say that they understand something, they should by no means affirm it.
How many times does it say in the Bible "you must believe in a Trinity?"
Now how many times does it say "
There is one God?" Yet your explanations sound a lot more like you are saying THREE Gods, three individuals. That would be tri-theistic.
I was going to post the CARM definition article for Trinity here, but it did such a good job of elusiveness without saying anything at all that there was not much to grab hold of one way or the other. Except I did see one part that made me smile:
https://carm.org/does-the-trinity-really-teach-there-are-three-gods
The reason I'm laughing here is because I've seen other Trinity crusaders blast the hated "Modalists" who "incorrectly" use analogies like "solid, liquid, and gas" in relation to God. I guess anything is OK to say as long as you use the word "Trinity."
https://www.gotquestions.org/Holy-Trinity.html
So here's what I have observed in my odd some years watching this subject: as long as you say the word "
TRINITY" you're accepted by one side, even if what you actually say is stupid or contradictor. And those that aren't in the
TRINITY team will call you
TRINITY if you say "Jesus is our Lord and God" and attack you as well, but team
TRINITY will call you a heretic for not wearing the team jersey.
Do you think this is what Jesus wants?
If you need a Trinity model for you to be able to have faith in Jesus as Lord and God who will raise you from the dead,
then use that Trinity model. But Jesus never said to condemn anyone for not believing a model that he never saw fit to give in the first place. If someone else needs a different model to understand Jesus as their Lord God and Savior,
then they likewise should use that model, and far be it from us to become stumbling blocks for them.
We need to focus on what Jesus said was actually important instead, not keep making up new rules and doctrines like the Pharisees did in Christ's day.