I call myself a Christian and I tolerate evil every moment of the day because I have no choice. I live in a world of sin whose god is satan. Stop and think of what you tolerate. Do you watch TV? My God...why would you tolerate the sin on there?
It would be so good if you could just let it go. It really is affecting you...whether you see it or not. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I wish there was something I could say, but I don't think there is. Sorry.