If I may be allowed, I would like to tell you about myself. I was raised a Catholic for the first 18 years of my life. The kind of Catholic where we were "ingrained" with the belief that (in regard to the oposite sex), that if we even LOOKED at a girl, we were going to Hell! Than I had become a "believer", (by accepting Jesus as my Lord & Savior.). Like the Catholics, I was once again, ingrained with the "guilt trip", namely "IF MAN LOOKS AT A WOMAN WITH LUST IN HIS HEART, HE HATH ALREADY COMMITED ADULTRY!" When I entered the real world, I had had o% experience with women-still a virgin at 23. I met a girl at a job that I had, & made the mistake of telling her that I was still a virgin. That was all she needed! She used me like a bull with a ring through his nose-always making it seem that I would get to have sex with her, although she had no intention of that! When she "dumped" me, I was totally devestated! It is because of what happened all those years ago, that I am still a virgin. I haven't been out on a date in over 20 years. This was also the reason I gave up on God, because I couldn't believe that a loving God could let something like this happen to me! My only life's philosophy now is what I talked about in my thread-DO WE REALLY HAVE A CHOICE? Whatever happens is meant to happen, because if it wasn't meant to happen, it wouldn't! If this is existance, you can have it! This is why every day I go on, I keep hoping to die, because I no longer want to live! At least I now have a place where people DO think that my opinions matter, & at least for that I am grateful! But I can't EVER go back to believing is God again.