That rule comes from Lord’s Prayer “forgive my sins as I have forgiven others”.
I know that I am a killer at heart. Threats of killing and torture issued from my lips even in my infancy. For that I excelled in marksmanship at ten years age during army training. An army habilder warned me that “every pull on trigger kills one”.
After that I wanted to change my mentality. But found it impossible. I could only repress my anger, not cure. I lost sanity almost then. Later I came to Christ and through a long process of love-works my anger began to be cured. Still, anger lurks in my heart and in weak moments it exposes itself. This anger is the universal killer. By this Christ was killed.
So I and everyone is a killer of Christ as long as pride and anger are in us. Then we are no better than Jewish priests. Those will go away in this life if I really love my murderers forgiving them. That hard laborious process I am carrying out by serving enemy Muslims. Slowly my heart is coming to pity them, terrorized captives of an angry god. I am trying to bring them to absolute love Heavenly Father whom Christ exemplified on the cross. This is my atonement for pushing them to proud and angry devil when I was in heaven before my fall. Then we opted for power rejecting love obeying Devil. He and we were blind to see that love-unity is the root of abiding power. As Eve pushed Adam to the rebel angel, so every degraded one degrades others too.
Now time will come, when love mature me will be able to forgive and love my murderers too. Then Father will allow enemies to kill me as he allowed in case of Christ and martyrs. Then I shall fully receive the forgiveness, Christ gave to his all murderers. Forgiveness given by others is never received if the forgiven one doesn’t repent to atone. So only a few repentant received the forgiveness given in Calvary. They proved their repentance by forgiving their murderers, actual or intentional.
I know that I am a killer at heart. Threats of killing and torture issued from my lips even in my infancy. For that I excelled in marksmanship at ten years age during army training. An army habilder warned me that “every pull on trigger kills one”.
After that I wanted to change my mentality. But found it impossible. I could only repress my anger, not cure. I lost sanity almost then. Later I came to Christ and through a long process of love-works my anger began to be cured. Still, anger lurks in my heart and in weak moments it exposes itself. This anger is the universal killer. By this Christ was killed.
So I and everyone is a killer of Christ as long as pride and anger are in us. Then we are no better than Jewish priests. Those will go away in this life if I really love my murderers forgiving them. That hard laborious process I am carrying out by serving enemy Muslims. Slowly my heart is coming to pity them, terrorized captives of an angry god. I am trying to bring them to absolute love Heavenly Father whom Christ exemplified on the cross. This is my atonement for pushing them to proud and angry devil when I was in heaven before my fall. Then we opted for power rejecting love obeying Devil. He and we were blind to see that love-unity is the root of abiding power. As Eve pushed Adam to the rebel angel, so every degraded one degrades others too.
Now time will come, when love mature me will be able to forgive and love my murderers too. Then Father will allow enemies to kill me as he allowed in case of Christ and martyrs. Then I shall fully receive the forgiveness, Christ gave to his all murderers. Forgiveness given by others is never received if the forgiven one doesn’t repent to atone. So only a few repentant received the forgiveness given in Calvary. They proved their repentance by forgiving their murderers, actual or intentional.
